I told myself I would blog today and I am not going to let myself down. After the terrible day I had, I can't afford to disappoint myself. :)
I am so carefree lately, it is scary. Sure my LAST DAY EVER AT BWW was one of the worst in months and then I got stuck staying til 4 and I totally winged a website I am not completely proud of and I have a 8-10 page paper due by Sunday that I haven't started...but I don't really care.
That's fun, huh?
I just have to get through the next 12 hours and then I have a date with my two best guy friends at the Turf for lunch, a quick trip to Walmart and the mall for necessities and ALL of my favorite people back in Fargo!
I am almost positive this is going to be an EPIC weekend to end a pretty great run at NDSU. The end is only a week away!
I just can't quite decide if I am excited for this graduation thing. Now, I know I am ready for it. I have prepared myself. I have worked extremely hard the past four years to get where I am and the real world can't be that different than the intense college career I put myself through...right?
But still, some days I don't really want to graduate. Some days, I want to move home so badly and others I want to live with Cait and Whit forever. Usually, I am so excited to start a full-time job and every once in a while, I am scared crapless to start that job.
Do you want to know why I think I am little scared? It is the dumbest reason in the world...and I am blaming it all on Mark...but I really really really am dreading going to work everyday for the rest of my life. Ten days vacation? That is not nearly enough for this girl--especially when her bf takes off for every cattle show or agriculture event ever invented.
I just need to breathe and relax. It won't be that bad. Everyone else does it and I am going to work for a great company that is right up my alley...I am so excited to be involved in the industry in such a crucial way. But I am still scared. Please stop judging me...it's normal I think.
However, in the mean time, I am going to live it up. I have 10 days (minus 2 days that I work at BEEF) to be absolutely crazy, go wild and check a few things off my to do list! And....if that means slacking on some school work...so be it. :)